So today I danced..
Its been nearly a month and about thirteen classes so far,and I feel alive like never before.
Happiness just exists. It just is. Without reason.Without cause.
But sometimes a little help to remove what's blocking it from you(mostly yourself!) is quite welcome.
Things happen randomly,unexpectedly to me.
Well,for almost a month now,Dance just happened...and how.
I enrolled for the class hoping to get over a fear of social dancing.
Its turned out to be an embrace of a new way of life altogether.
Not unlike learning a new cuisine or travelling to an entirely foreign land or acquiring a radically new perspective.
But there's a vital difference.
There's an absolutely maddening absence of boredom or ennui...
Let me explain.
Being the Aquarian that I am,I can get drawn quite passionately to new pursuits and can quite convincingly push myself to achieve a lot.And there lies the problem..More often than not,pushing myself to that extent usually leaves me dissatisfied when I find familiar territory being reached.Simply put,achievement bores me.
I'm fine with being judged for that,BTW. :)
But with Dance,my chosen art,there's achievement without completion that may result in a fall back to the same familiar territory.
In other words,there's never a dull moment.
There's steps and there's learning them.True.
But deep inside,you realize that somewhere in all the regimentation,learning,absorbing the instructions lies the first ever promise of a full life..and that is where things get interesting.
The difference between learning to earn/live and learning because its your passion is gargantuan.
Let me just put it this way..
When you dance,you just dance.
You don't do it BECAUSE..
It just happens.
Quite like happiness, fulfilment,living life fully..the joy in dancing happens quite naturally.
Somewhere deep inside,you feel connected to a huge and passionate fraternity of practitioners of this beautiful art..
To me,it felt like a blinding light at the end of a particularly long and dark tunnel..
I am ready to take my place in that fraternity.
The learning will continue,I know.
But perhaps,living fully needn't wait any longer.
And just like that,life feels happier,lighter,elegant. :)
Its been nearly a month and about thirteen classes so far,and I feel alive like never before.
Happiness just exists. It just is. Without reason.Without cause.
But sometimes a little help to remove what's blocking it from you(mostly yourself!) is quite welcome.
Things happen randomly,unexpectedly to me.
Well,for almost a month now,Dance just happened...and how.
I enrolled for the class hoping to get over a fear of social dancing.
Its turned out to be an embrace of a new way of life altogether.
Not unlike learning a new cuisine or travelling to an entirely foreign land or acquiring a radically new perspective.
But there's a vital difference.
There's an absolutely maddening absence of boredom or ennui...
Let me explain.
Being the Aquarian that I am,I can get drawn quite passionately to new pursuits and can quite convincingly push myself to achieve a lot.And there lies the problem..More often than not,pushing myself to that extent usually leaves me dissatisfied when I find familiar territory being reached.Simply put,achievement bores me.
I'm fine with being judged for that,BTW. :)
But with Dance,my chosen art,there's achievement without completion that may result in a fall back to the same familiar territory.
In other words,there's never a dull moment.
There's steps and there's learning them.True.
But deep inside,you realize that somewhere in all the regimentation,learning,absorbing the instructions lies the first ever promise of a full life..and that is where things get interesting.
The difference between learning to earn/live and learning because its your passion is gargantuan.
Let me just put it this way..
When you dance,you just dance.
You don't do it BECAUSE..
It just happens.
Quite like happiness, fulfilment,living life fully..the joy in dancing happens quite naturally.
Somewhere deep inside,you feel connected to a huge and passionate fraternity of practitioners of this beautiful art..
To me,it felt like a blinding light at the end of a particularly long and dark tunnel..
I am ready to take my place in that fraternity.
The learning will continue,I know.
But perhaps,living fully needn't wait any longer.
And just like that,life feels happier,lighter,elegant. :)
Beautifully expressed... !
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